|Top 10 placing in the Inter 1 Music at Hartpury CDI|
However the situation now couldn't be more different. Due to veterinary and shoeing problems with all the horses, up until yesterday I hadn't done even ONE competition this year. And that wasn't even on one of my competition horses, it was on my little project pony Pedro doing an unaffiliated prelim!! It's actually laughable when I step back and think "wow.... so this is my career now".
But I certainly don't let it get me down, because as frustrating as it is to not be out "doing my thing", I have found my 'Why'. Why when everything goes wrong, I keep my faith. Why I keep training every day. Why I still see a bright future ahead. Why I chose this life.
It is an absolute guarantee that any rider will go through lows where their horse is lame or ill, or they have to sell it and are horseless for a while. In a sport where competing is often the main motivation to keep training and get better, what is then your motivation when you can't compete? Or on those cold dark winter days, what gets you out of bed and makes you rug yourself and your horse up and go out to the arena and train, especially when its off-season and competitions are few and far between?
|Seb and I at the trot-up at|
Just like yoga, this investigation isn't just mental but also physical. The condition of your body has a direct impact on your state of mind. I am kind of obsessed with riding symmetrically and having all my muscles conditioned just right to perform my best on the horse. I have a real thing about my body not being strong, flexible or mobile enough to feel like I can give the horse his best shot at getting the work right. To me, there is no excuse to not give the horse that chance. I like to work on my body just as much as the horse because at the end of the day, it starts with me! The horse will never do it by himself! So when my body feels right, my mind feels more at peace and I can focus on creating good work with the horse, as long as I've been able to let go of any bulls**t that's in my head while I'm in the saddle.
So for this reason I have kept up my motivation, because working on my mind and body alone is such an inspiring task and I find when you add a horse to the equation it makes it even more extraordinary. I can even view riding as a form of meditation, where I can let go of anything that's weighing me down, and focus on one thing - creating. This time out has actually even pushed me to better my career by adding a "bit of me" to what I do, so I am now beginning my yoga teacher training. By December this year, I will be a qualified yoga teacher and be able to use my 'Why' even more on a daily basis.
|Ecstatic to be placed 4th in the Inter 1|
at Hickstead CDI!
And always remember that whatever you do, regardless of why you do it, do it with love.